I think one of the thing's we often forget to do is reflect on what has happened, in the past or present.
I don't know if this is a good thing or a bad thing but i can tell you know that over the past month or so i have been reflecting on my life, my home and what i do.
I think when it comes to reflecting back on thing's it can become an unhealthy obsession we look at what we did, and we obsess over every single little detail to the point where we can not better our selfs and to the point where reflection is a bad thing.
My Dad, told me a few thing's about how dad and mum got together and i was pissed off at myself for the way i treated my dad, and i was just angry, granted i was a highly strung emotional wreck that week, but still i was pissed off to the max.
Emma, who is my best friend, has the most amazing grandparents in the world, and affter the funral and after every thing that just happened last week, we got to sit down and reflect on the funeral and my thought process, with Rayma and Kevin (Emma's grandparents.)
Kevin was sitting down just being quiet and Rayma was chatting to me and she said some thing to me that i don't think i will ever forget, she said "Brad i know there is a lot of thing's that are going through you mind but we can't look at the past because what has been said and done is in the past all you got to do is look at the future and see that the grass is greener on the other side".
I don't think she knows how much that will change me and how much that has helped me.
So if you reading this Rayma which you probably never will, sorry about the horrible spelling and grammer, and thank you. I hope you get to see the knew Brad in the not to distant future.
So after all this shit that has been going on i took another week off work i am still in melbourne i will be back, home on Friday thank goodness and back to normality.
I don't think reflection is a bad thing i just think we need to keep it in perspective and remember that there is always greener grass on the other side.